This Is My Life & My Say!

CHANGES....

Today I will be blogging bout changes~ 

Changes in me in all these recent years.. 

I used to be very tomboy, when I mentioned VERY.. I speak the truth.. I was so tomboy that I hate to wear skirts and dress.. 

I just can't.. I don't like the idea of dressing myself up because makeup make me sweat and it still do..

I am fat, so I tend to sweat damn easily.. and of course not to mention that I smelled.. T.T 

And when I sweat, it just makes my face feel and look pretty oily and ugly! So I would never want to dress myself up and made myself look good... And of course being lazy is one of the reasons too.. =X 

I used to have short hair.. Its so short that people tend to think that I am a boy or I am gay.. T.T 


The only feminine in me was my long hair when years went by, I started to grow long hair, I have curly hair and its really difficult for me to maintain.. 


It requires time and effort to make my hair look wavy and nice.. So I would always bun up my hair or tied it up.. So I don't sweat much too..

When people see my face, the only feature that caught their attention was my god damn short eyebrows.. Its born to be like this!! 


I didn't make it short on purpose.. 


This is something that I wanted to change on my face when I was 15.. So I plucked up my courage and started to trim and drew it using eyebrow pencil..


I swear to god, it didn't make me look better AT ALL! 


Its fucking ugly and during that time I thought it was okay.. Because no one would tell me how wrong it looked.. So its just a additional stuff that my classmates would use to tease me..


But luckily my Third auntie was kind enough to guide and taught me how to do it, in the end, I was so good at it that people thought that I went for tattoo or someone who is so good at it to draw for me everyday.. ya right! As if anyone would be so kind enough to do this for me.. T.T 


I would be so proud to tell people that I drew it myself.. You got that right, I was only 15 and I drew my own eyebrow to school everyday without fail and it would look so real! People start to compliment ! ^^ 

Yep! The picture above, those eyebrows were drawn! 


I would let my hair down occasionally when I feel like it~ =X 


I used to have short nails too.. I NEVER HAD Long nails till these recent years.. I had this bad habit of mine (I still do but I TRY NOT TO DO IT) and that is I bite my nails. It started when I was small.. 


I never made that effort to kick this habit off.. I just continue doing it and thought that nothing is wrong~ =X 


But I don't know what came over me.. It just suddenly popped out from my head and told myself that I want long nails.. I wanna do manicure! 


So I grew long nails and tried my very best for not biting them.. 


Last two years ago, I told my sis that I wanna do something bout my makeup. I DO NOT WANT TO WEAR SPECTACLES AT ALL! And I wanna change that.. 


My sis just whipped out her makeup kit and helped me to do makeup..  

The result was this.. 


She made my eyes looked big and nice.. From single eyelid to double eyelid! =) I was thrilled and amazed bout how makeup CAN WORK on me! (That's if I am hardworking enough to make myself look good everyday! ) 


Decided to make contact lens and even when I did wear them, I seldom wear them.. Because I wasn't getting use to it.. Contact lens + fake eyelashes = my eyes got tired very easily.. 


So I just wear contact lens when I have occasions.. 

Then I went to get my eyebrows done! 


I went for eyebrow embroidery !! Mum suggested it and it looked so natural ! I didn't regret at all  for doing it! 


Of course my makeup wasn't good at all. I sucked at everything!! 


Eyeliner, eye shadow, applying fake lashes ESP! I still DO suck at it but hey! I am still working on it! 


But above picture proved that practise makes perfect!! ^^ 


I finally get the hang of it after years of drawing it ESP Eyeliner! Sometimes I still suck at it esp when my mood is fucking bad.. =X 

After days of practising of how to apply fake lashes, I finally get it.. Like on how to apply properly and don't make my eyes look un-balance.. And now I can wear contact lens for long hours !! 


My eyes don't feel sleepy anymore and I felt comfortable with it! ^^ 

Finally, I tried coloured contact lens with wide dimensions and here is the result of it! 

Even the make up was something new that I learnt from Bubzbeauty (Youtube makeup guru!) yesterday! 

What I am trying to emphasis here is that despite all those years of trial and error, I finally get the skills of makeup! 

Of course, makeup is not the only thing that make you look beautiful.. 

I still think inner beauty is the most important thing that each person must have~ No matter how thick your makeup is that make you look drop dead gorgeous, it still won't help you look pretty if your inner self is not pretty at all! 

For me, makeup just boosts up my confidence~ It made me feel good and eventually it will make me look good, presentable~ 

I have days that I would just want to be plain, without having any makeup to go to work or to town.. plus its a advantage to let my skin take a break~! 

Who says fat people can't be beautiful too? People comes in all kinds of size and shapes, as long as you know what is the real meaning of beauty and wants to do something bout yourself~ You can be beautiful too! 

And Thanks to my sister and mum who always encourages me and inspires me for wanting to look beautiful~ Esp my sister who actually TAUGHT me how! ^^ 

So people~ Stay beautiful and happy always! Till next time! ^^