This Is My Life & My Say!

DREAM AND DESIRE

I guess many people would say at times that they rather stay in their dream and never wake up, because when you wake up, everything nice in it will turn out to be horror? Okay, not to extend that its horrifying but ya know..Not the way you wanted your life to be ?

Every time when i was having a very great dream that i was so happy in it, wanted my life to be this way, everything was just perfect. But SNAP, you woke up and found out that "damn, thats only a dream.." Sometimes dream gives you happy feelings that you are supposed to be happy when you wake up, and with a happy mood throughout the day.. But for me, it isn't this case.

Because i was so happy in my dream and everything was so perfect that i do not wanna wake up!

And by the time i woke up, i felt so disappointed.. Well, because my life isn't as happy as it is in my dream..

On many occasions, i would wake up crying so hard because i had nightmares, and it felt so real! Seriously, its so real that when i woke up, i would feel so sad.. For example, i dreamt that my mum died, about Choco (My first dog) etc etc.. Sometimes even minor things that i don't remember, but all i know was, i was so sad and miserable..

I had a great dream last night, first time describing my dream in public, whenever i dream of my "lover" , i wouldnt tell anyone, let alone blogging about it.. But this time is different, it felt so real that i will never forget..

Well, i dreamt that we were shopping together, with some close friends of course.. I know i was in love with him and i dont know if he did too.. But anyways, we were kinda loving, we werent really together, just holding hands and hugging each other, because people~ I LOVE HUGS! I really do~ I love hugging people~ =) So anyways, i was so in love with him that i kept hugging him~ So while our friends were shopping, we will spend some time together alone and just hugged, nothing but hug, to me its meaningful. Because sometimes that kind of actions just showed love, no talks, just hugs~ Ya know what i am saying?

So anyways, we were at counter again and i told him :

Me : I like you, do you? You never told me you like me..
Him : I do (Very soft voice and not in a proper manner)
Me : I cant hear you...
Him : I do (Maybe raising his voice for a lil)
Me : I still cant hear you..
Him: I DO! I LIKE YOU! (In a loud voice now, and smiling away~)

It gave me a deep impression of this scene because this is how he would act in real person sometimes~ aha~

And after hanging out for awhile and SNAP! I woke up again..

Yet again, disappointed.

People~ Please dont ask me who is this person because i will never enclose this kind of information to you, i am already brave enough to even blog it out~ So ya~ I am not a very expressive person when it comes to Boy girl relationship. I always kept it to myself..

People around keep telling me to go out and know more guys because they know how bad i wanna find that guy in my life, but i just cant bring myself to do it, firstly, i am afraid of strangers.. secondly, i am just scared.. Because i know NUTS about this sort of stuff..

Anyways, i just wanna express bout how i feel right now.. ya know.. this blog is always bout my life, about how was i doing and sort of stuff, just feel like blogging something with my inner self.. That's all now~ Till then! =)